argh. i seriously dread this month because i am collecting my results soon. i keep having this reoccuring fear that my L1R4 would be above 20 and even then, it is not the worse, it is the after effect that takes place, showing my family. i am so scared. i am so afraid that my ugly score would get my into troubles and my future is gone - already knowing from many people that Visual Communication is a course that is hard to get you jobs later. I really dunno what to do now , all i can do is just fret. If i am kicked out of the house because of my horrible results, will anyone let me in?
I can t stand myself being 'bop' down again and again and again but i mean, that's the way it is . My forte was never in studies but a subject that Singapore had never taken this issue as a importance - Sports. So right now , i feel like i am in a no man island. I know people will still love me for whatever results that i have , but will the people still look at me the same way before? and not treat me like some low down shit? i can t take this crap anymore, it is simply boggling my mind. But i know for sure, if my results are no good, problems at home is sure to catch fire again, and once again, i will feel like a fcuked up burden.
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February 2nd
off to whitesands after work at the daycare center to have dinner with deborah and Macdonalds. their new prosperity meal is not bad :D my total favourite because it is blackpepper and it is HOT HOT HOT :] i love! after that, took a train down to Simei and bought a lil snacks from 7-11 and ran under the MRT tracks like crazy because we thought there was a bangala following us and luckily korkorwee came to fetch us! we ate ice cream, twisties , watched Survivor and played table tennis before we headed upstairs. Deborah and i were supposed to sleep in the guest room but ah kim found 2 cockroaches and we slept in the master bedroom instead. Halfway through the night, i confiscated Deborah's bolster and used it as my pillow instead. The pillow was so hard , like those in the olden days of China. HAHAHA.
the train down to Simei was very empty :D
btw, deborah lie until so sexy while i lie like some dead corpse.
February 3rd
woke up and had chicken rice at some bedok place with Ah gu, Ah kim , Yi Lin , Deborah and I. later went to shop and save for a while and headed back to Yi Lin's house. We played make up later :D i love lor! i seriously think i look good with thick eyeliner around my eye like avril lavinge! we did deborah's one first , then me , then yi lin. later korkor wee did for yuan yin. not bad la :D we took a photo together . my standing position is so weird.
deborah, jy, yi lin and yuan yin :D
my make up pattern drawn by NG YI LIN
they are called curry leaves to cook in the curry
i like this picture a lot :D
we wanted to do for korkor wee but he ran away. sigh, i was so excited too. later we had to bath and changed into pretty clothes and headed down to Orchid country club for CNY dinner and then we went back to Deborah's house for a game of mahjongs and chatting for the kids :D
we reached home about 2am, i was so tired, i fell asleep after plonking myself on the bed.
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February 4th
went to church today and deborah and I isolated ourselves from the crowd and sat upstairs alone . I felt a lil comfortable that way and i wrote lots of notes. Later we took a bus down to suntec city and a train down to orchard to meet up with Yi lin. we walked around a lil, watched Once in a Summer. Sigh, the guy in the movie is so romantic unlike singaporeans guy here. I love his smile lor. Ate desserts at Swenson and took a slow walk back to the train station. Korkor fetched me from the bus stop because the walk home is a lil dark and before that i saw Li Zhen and i miss her so much :D
Yi lin is going back soon and we just started to have fun :[
don t want to put this picture big big ): , later people think i zi lian but honestly i am taking pictures to see how i look like this artistic make up. nothing more and nothing less :D but i think i look good :D or maybe even better than good! HAHAHA.
gosh. i have to take care of 30 kids tomorrow.
1 , 2 , 3 , DAO!
btw, i design Deborah's and Yi Lin 's make up pattern?
nice not :D comments okay!
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